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pt III???

Everything's saying on the website itself that my application went through, but I haven't gotten an email saying as much, so I'm not sure what's going on there. I got an email when I failed it last time, but I  should also be getting an email succeeding, because that's what Personnel said over the phone when I tried to contact them the first time. I'd been going to call back today about it but I guess I didn't. 

Dilemma In Short

I should be making a vlog within the next couple of days but virtually nothing happened to me this month.

Assessment Battery pt II

Alright, so retaking the assessment yesterday, getting a new account with a different e-mail, filling in all the same forms the same way and everything (that's, what the personnel director suggested I do, when I called her wondering if she could somehow magic me into having the assessment un-failed, she suggested the best course would be to just try the assessment again under a different e-mail address) and I succeeded this time. Passed, I mean.

They go over applications on Tuesdays, from what I've gathered. But past that I really don't know what to expect.

Gosh, Do We Have Reason to Celebrate

I feel so creative at night. But any given thought is arbitrary, any one could be spun off or ran away with. I haven't been videoing as much as I should have (and I was going to say this into a camera but the battery's charging rn) because the world is too wonderful for me to try to put a little frame around it- but that doesn't mean I shouldn't try and share. And spending so long in the sun last summer really messed up my complexion. Have my ears also always been this red? I thought it would go away but it didn't. My beard looks much better trimmed- like, even looks really good now, whereas a few days ago I was considering just shaving the whole thing off.

Gosh, do we have reason to celebrate.

Cell Phone Detectives Saga- Maybe It's Not Stolen After All??

So it's something I realized recently (maybe yesterday?) but my phone seemingly having a new login on the 13th of last month, that wasn't someone logging into it on a different account because they found it and stole it and it's theirs now; that was me logging into my new laptop and counting as a new login across all my devices for some reason. I guess I realized that checking my email and seeing the login location as being the laptop, with the email sent the day the new login, which I'd thought had been my phone's, had registered.

But I'm not sure. Could check further into it.

Right so on that note, a few weeks ago I figured out that my phone wasn't misplaced anywhere at home at all, and had nothing to do with any of the suspects I'd mentioned, but had been taken somewhere after a Christmas pageant thing- for some reason. Tell you more if I ever find it...

Spit vs Polish

Figured I may as well get in a post today on this blog, though I'm far more interested right now in Pretzelize Me, Cap'n!. I learned a lot of weird and wonderful things today, but I'm not sure if I'm going to talk about them elsewhere in a more polished state, and I hate doing things like that redundantly, but I'm never satisfied with my level of polish, and so I never complete anything? And I don't like having the final say, in case I messed up somewhere, and I was able to publish so much project on my mission because hypothetically there was a buffer there in the form of my project supervisor(s) who'd give everything the once-over before things went to print. 

I realized today that heck I should at least be shooting stuff, under the knowledge that I'd have myself later as the buffer in the form of editor, but then I thought about how I'm never satisfied with the footage I got the first time around and go back and reshoot like everything and so it takes me forever anyway, and could I really be strictly an editor in my role as editor and get things done without extensive reshoots? That's the goal at least.

I could potential spend another half hour sweeping the cobwebs of the edges of the thoughts in this post, but I'm going to try to practice what I'm trying to preach, and just call this post good.

Assessment Battery

So I've been in the process of applying for a job at Wal-Mart because this overnight thing opened up which sounds ideal because who sleeps at night, right?; only I didn't say anything about it till now because, well one let's face it I've not been saying much of anything lately, but two, it seemed like such a shoe-in thing but not for certain so why bring it up early when you can wait if it actually comes true? And all this time it turns out that my application wasn't complete and there was this assessment I needed to take and I failed that today, so I wouldn't be able to reapply for another five months just as an automated system thing. In five months' time, of course, it won't matter.

And playing Super Mario Odyssey this evening and thinking about that, how maybe I can get someone to reset so I can take it again simultaneously also proving how dedicated I can be, Dad comes in and says how he doesn't want me playing video games all day for the rest of my life, living in my parent's metaphorical basement and working just at Wal-Mart when I could do so much better. And I was playing video games because like the Wal-Mart thing went south, and I don't want to make a career of Wal-Mart anyway I just really need a job, and night shifts how perfect is that?

And so I'm not sure whether I should request the assessment reset or whatever, because maybe not working at Wal-Mart would be a Good Thing, and it was a Good Thing that I failed the assessment?

(So the assessment is like this personality test, I guess seeing if the position you're applying for is a good fit for you?, and I fail personality tests just like in general as a general principle, even though  that shouldn't be possible because personality tests aren't pass/fail by definition.)

(Like, the assessment asked the same questions over again a bunch, and I'm pretty sure I gave polar opposite answers each time, because like, ????.)

(And like I'm sure probably if I did have a personality then I would totally know how to feel about all this, but I guess I don't.)

Game Overs

I dream in heists and sci-fi plots, and increasingly see life in terms of video game mechanics: I died dozens of times today, each failure on average carrying me further than the last, though only on average. The nevertheless frequent failures occurring in an area of the level that is well-trod and easy, those are more frustrating than the deaths at a more advanced and difficult zone, though the earlier failures be out of the way  more quickly. 

I had more to say on this theme, but I can't remember it right now.

Manmade Spams

There have been a few spammish comments on my blog recently but I'm not taking them down, because they're on a few old posts that I don't want anybody to be looking at anyway. Also because they're friendly.

Keep meaning to do a video a week no matter how bad, but then not because they're just so bad. Like yeah.

Getting to a point of popularity where I can be spammed on by perfect strangers, that didn't come from quality control. Came from putting up posts I thought were good at the time but now am so embarrassed by that I keep the spam on 'em.

So there's this guy on Twitter who's doing like fake AI writing, a human imitating how a computer imitates a human? So like Horse Ebooks, or Harry Potter and the Portrait of What Looked Like a Large Pile of Ash. And the future is just wild.

Dreams Are Fascinating and I Pity Anyone Who Thinks Otherwise

So I'm reading What If? by Randall Munroe, not the book but the website itself, and there's a question here about a giant hypothetical slope from one end of the country to the other, and... this all seems familiar. That was a dream that somebody had once, that I read about somewhere, but can't find out about because doing web searches for dreams just yields stupid dream symbolism stuff. 

But the parts I remember are this (could it have been my own dream once?): there's a giant slope, and people are riding bikes down it or something, just like in the What If, there's like a bike race or something... and there was something about, at first I was thinking a dog or a duck but the further I think about it it must have been a turtle, like a giant turtle, who can talk and is a vehicle or something, and something about needing to help its babies or something?, because it was a vehicle itself?, and, maybe it was my own dream, or maybe a friend's, I'm going to have to ask...

But man how great would it be if there were like a wiki of people's dreams, that you could search easily. Not magical or anything, just like, dreams famous people had and mentioned briefly in magazine articles or whatever, and then get stuck in your craw years after reading about them...

Cell Phone Story Maybe

Would you believe that I was like 12 seconds away from victory there? With the mission being, survive the onslaught for, however long. I'm going to try it again after this- and maybe a night of sleep as well...

So apparently it was only like last week that I got my major lead in the case of where my phone could have gone, based off of the fact that I didn't make a video last week but considered the topic. I'm no good at gauging time at all. Every so often I've been going onto my Google account and attempting to ping the location, like maybe magically the juice recharged or something?, but the login didn't work last time, so I had to look into it deeper. It looks like there was a new sign-in a month ago, hmm..., but attempting to call the phone yields no pickups, so I don't know what's up with that.

Didn't have location history turned on, but looking through my normal web history for that account, even just seeing what videos I watched on YouTube to see if I could spark a memory of my circumstances around my last seeing my phone, it turns out that the weather alerts come with GPS information attached, the precise location of the pertinent weather. This GPS information can get way accurate- down to the precise address.

The last weather alert was from the driveway of a house just a block down from the church. The phone was... well I don't know the story, but the last I saw it would have been around the meetings pertaining to the Christmas pageant. The address in particular isn't the home of a member of the church- but both houses neighboring are members'. So I'm going to poke in there and ask, before approaching the true address that it should be. Because I'm really not sure how something like that would have happened.

blogpost with many ??????s

My mom has been posting more than me this month and that's (with the idea that I'm "supposed" to blog every day and she's "supposed" to blog every week) a problem. But like so, maybe the problem is that once a day is too little?? With all the social media that I "should" be doing (and oh btw I've got a lead on the location of my two-months-missing cell phone but haven't told my mom yet because well I was gonna, almost did when I figured it out, called her over but she didn't come so I just sort of dropped the issue (this was like a week ago maybe? bad with gauging time)(oh man is it Feb already?, where did Jan go)) you'd figure it should be easy but well...

okay so like the thing I would blog about or whatever, that changes every 15 minutes, because the world is so big and wonderful that any conceivable thing could be worth spreading??? though actually I'm also very cynical of corporate interests???? and everyone's trying to get ahead which is just code for "get ahead at the expense of everyone else" but nonetheless I find everyone's struggles so eminently noble??????

and  I really feel like my pretzelize me cap'n could be so much more curated than this blog, which is also why I'm not posting there as much as I should because I'm not posting here as much as I should and it's tough to curate nothing.

Oreo

So I haven't posted in a week, which is all month, and I realize this, and I was just going to not post today either, but man midnight has been taking forever to get here, so I figured I may as well post right now anyway. I'm, well I've got all these ideas for videos or whatever, doing only one a week seems like I need to make it good or whatever, but which idea is best idea??, the one that's most recent... but I realized!! blog is good for daily thought.

Oreo the raccoon passed. :C